Random Post~

Hello!
This time i wanna share some song's lyrics which has a deep meanings, this songs will reminds you to the "Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian" movies. Well..although it was an old songs, but it's really great to heard.
Let's check this out!
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The Call

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back when you call me
No need to say goodbye
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Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
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Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when they call you
No need to say goodbye
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Not-So-Confused but....

Well, hi..
This time i wanna type something which is really disturb my mind..
should i say in english...or..
um..maybe i won't type in english, then..
kalian pernah gak sih merasa bingung akan suatu hal?
yup, gua sedang mengalami kejadian itu. kejadian yang harus benar2 dapat jawaban pasti namun masih tidak ada respon sama sekali..
yah, istilahnya gua mungkin "digantungin" lagi. bener2 kacau banget buat sekarang. gatau kedepannya harus gimana..
andaikata membuat "planning lagi".. ah rasanya udah terlalu banyak planning di pikiran gua.
aku..capek..
mungkin disini gua gabakal cerita banyak tentang apa yang gua pikirin.. cuman emang bingung kalo dihadapkan ama suatu hal yang menjurus ke berbagai ambiguitas.
ya....
ambiguitas dalam pikiran tentunya..
feels like, pikiran gua bener2 penuh ama berbagai hal.
ah...sepertinya gua terlalu lama tenggelam dalam pikiran..haha
kadang suka mikir,
gua aja yang terlalu berlebihan kah?
apa mungkin orang lain diluar sana lg menghadapi masalah yang sama kayak gua?
yg notabenenya dikejar waktu..butuh kepastian.. mencari apa makna tujuan hidup..
kadang suka mikir sih, kok kayaknya jalan gua kedepannya gak semulus dengan apa yang gua rencanain ya?
hmm Tuhan emang punya jalan lain, yang mungkin baik untuk diri gua sendiri.
tapi...
gimana caranya menghilangkan pikiran yang bener2 terlalu ambisius?
gimana caranya menghilangkan pikiran yang selalu berpikir terlalu jauh?
gimana caranya membuat otak rehat sejenak dari berbagai macam pilihan?
yah.. gua emang kebanyakan berpikir terlalu jauh..kepala yang penuh dengan berbagai macam pertanyaan..
gak mungkin karna sifat koleris kan? YA PASTI ENGGA HHHH
ibarat lagu IKON yang judulnya I'M OK. dari luar keliatan gapapa tapi didalam hati rasanya...:")
ah gua lagi ngomong apaansi....wkwkkwkwkw
intinya udah gatau lagi. aku....sudah....gatau....
dan terkadang melihat jam saja sudah menyebalkan rasanya.
sepertinya mulai sekarang harus banyak bersabar dan.... tersenyum.
ya benar...
tersenyum saja, everything is gonna be alright.
well......
is it a right words for now? ....
I dunno.

A New Hopes

I forgot to say these words, so.....
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Selamat tinggal 2018, Selamat datang 2019 !
Selamat tinggal kenangan, selamat datang harapan:)))))
Hope in this year all of us will stay healthy, happy, and get full of lucks.
Semoga......
- Tahun ini, yang sedang mengejar kelulusan diberi kemudahan
- Tahun ini yang sedang mencari pekerjaan diberi kemudahan
- Tahun ini yang sedang mencari jodoh pun diberi kemudahan
Apapun itu, semoga semua hal yang positif bisa tercapai di tahun ini..InshaaAllah:)
Aamiin

If

Empty
That was an empty room
Without no one knows it
Nobody knows
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That room's key was gone
Without no one know where it is
And I keep looking for that key
Until I lost.... in that darkness
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If someone finds it..
If someone wants to take it..
If someone likes that key..
Should I give it?
Or should I take that key?
I feel so confused...suddenly..
And don't know how to react
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Day by day..
I keep looking for that key
And maybe waiting
Waiting for someone who finds that key
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And if it found..
If it's really found by someone
I would like to.. give that key to that person
And letting for enter that room
And hopes..
That room will be bright and shining again
Like it used to be


- DPS -

Silence

In a crowded sky
That little girl just feels a silence
Looking for the happiness
But still, it didn't show up to her
The dark has woken up
Makes her feels like falling in a deep hole
And she found something
An empty chamber in a silent place
...........
...to be continued...

Don't get me Wrong

well, hi!
kali ini gue pengen make bahasa indonesia dan cerita sedikit terkait sesuatu yg agak mengganjal pikiran gue.
eh mon maap nih ya kalo bosen buat baca, cuman dengan blog gue bisa utarain semua yg ada di kepala gue, karna sejatinya gue agak susah buat sampein apa yg gue rasain yg sebenarnya ke siapapun. emang sih gue punya Allah dan sahabat yg mau denger keluh kesah gue, but still, gue ngerasa masih ada sesuatu yg mengganjal dan perlu dikeluarin.
jujur juga, gue itu sebenarnya tipikal orang yg Ambivert, perpaduan dari Ekstrovert dan Introvert. jangan salah kaprah juga ama kelakuan gue ya! jadi kalo lu liat gue orangnya mudah bersosialisasi atau bisa-bisa jadi orang yg pendiam, itu karna gue menyesuaikan dengan kondisinya, yg menuntut gue kayak gitu. jadi maaf banget kalo kadang ku suka jutek, diam atau apapun. aslinya mah malu-maluin kalo udah kenal.
oh ya kan gue lupa kalo mau curhat.
heettttt, gue bukan galau karna cowok ya! asli, sekarang emang gaada cowok yg lg gue suka dan gue pikirin saat ini.
yup, singkat cerita. gue ngerasa gue kudu gak ambil SUP dulu di semester ini. apa ya...semuanya terlalu terburu-buru. lagipula bikin kerangka skripsi mulai dari bab 1 sampe bab 3 itu gak gampang. tentunya gue butuh waktu untuk hibernasi dan fokus ke hal itu doang. soalnya kalo dipikir-pikir lg, gue semester ini ada 3 mata kuliah yg harus diambil. matkul ngulang yaitu Manajemen Keuangan (karna kena imbas 2 kelas yg dikasih nilai jelek ama dosen), Kewirausahaan, ama PKL. jadi andaikan gue ambil SUP pun, rasanya bakal gak fokus. oh ya disini gue mau lurusin aja sih, matkul yg ngulang itu bener-bener bikin gue harus nerima kenyataan dan paitnya imbas dari kelasan sebelah yg berurusan dengan 1 dosen. yah emang bener-bener gue dkk gak beruntung kali ini. dan baiklah gue mau ga mau harus ngulang matkul itu, demi transkip nilai yg bersih dari kata nilai jelek hehehe.
selain itu, gue sempet buat asumsi sendiri sih jika andaikan gue tetep ambil SUP tapi kalo gak bisa menyelesaikannya dengan tepat waktu. berdasarkan analisa gue itu, jika nilai SUP gue 0 karna gak selesai sampe 3 bab, perkiraan IP gue bisa dibawah 3.....dan tentunya gue juga gak mau ambil resiko itu, rasanya gue gak rela kalo nilai IPK yg selama ini bisa dibilang tinggi harus turun karna resiko itu. tapi balik lg, namanya juga manusia ya, wajar aja kalo pengennya mendapat sesuatu yg dia inginkan. contohnya ya lulus kuliah 3,5 tahun. jujur, gue mau kayak gitu. siapa sih yg gak mau kuliahnya cuman 3,5 tahun? tentunya semua pasti mau lah ya....
tapi karna resiko tadi, gue jadi sedikit mengurungkan niat buat ambil SUP. rasa takut kayak gitu agak mengganggu pikiran gue. dan asli, kalo lu mau tau yg sebenarnya, gue bener-bener bingung buat hadapin semester 7 ini. rasanya mau kabur, tapi tanggung. mau mundur, tapi pengen cepet lulus. ah manusia emang, suka labil! wkwkwk
btw, gue baru aja ngirim permohonan untuk kerja part-time. mungkin karna semester ini kuliahnya bisa dihitung make jari, makanya gue memutuskan buat ngelamar beberapa pekerjaan paruh waktu. selain buat mengisi waktu luang, tentunya buat nambah uang jajan....hohoho.
sebenarnya sih gue udah kerja paruh waktu, sebagai tutor privat. cuman karna lokasinya belom ada yg seret dihati, makanya gue cuti dulu buat sementara hehehe. yah intinya, jadi tutor privat itu gak semudah dan seenak yg kalian pikirin deh. ada plus minusnya. layaknya pekerjaan yg mau dipilih aja, pastinya juga ada plus minus.
kayaknya segitu dulu kali ya gue curhatnya, nanti kalo ada yg mengganjal baik di pikiran atau di hati, mon maap nih, bakal rame ini blog ama curhatan gue..hahaha

Old Memories That Won't Change

well, hi!
this time i wanna type something that actually disturb my mind nowadays. maybe i will use bahasa, for now.
ah...........
udah semester 7 aja. rasanya baru aja gue masuk ke dunia perkuliahan. sedikit kilas balik ke masa lalu boleh kali ya? hehehe.
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waktu itu sekitar bulan mei atau juni tahun 2015. gue seneng banget ternyata keterima SNMPTN di salah satu perguruan tinggi negeri yang ada di jakarta, a.k.a UNJ! yup, gue emang gak nyangka bisa lolos dan masuk ke universitas tanpa lewat tes apapun. bener-bener sebuah keberuntungan yang gak pernah gue sangka sebelumnya. sekitar pertengahan bulan agustus pun gue coba buat survey tempat kosan. maklum karna tinggalnya di Tangerang dan kuliahnya di Jakarta Timur menuntut gue buat jadi orang yang mandiri. dan akhirnya gue pun menemukan tempat kos pertama. disana gue cuman betah selama 1 semester, itu pun masih sering pulang ke Tangerang hehehe (maklum masih masa-masa homesick). dan saat itu gue harus menjalani rangkaian MPA. seiring dengan berjalannya waktu, gue pun akhirnya menemukan kosan yg tepat dan masih dihuni sampai saat ini
yup, saat itu, selama menjadi MaBa a.k.a Mahasiswa Baru, tentunya harus ikutin rangkaian yg satu ini. MPA. sebelum acara itu dimulai, kita pun diberikan berbagai tugas. mulai dari tugas individu, kelompok satu prodi hingga kelompok satu fakultas. dan disanalah awal cerita dimulai.
pertama gue mau singgung sedikit tentang kelompok satu fakultas. ya. di fakultas ekonominya UNJ terdiri dari 3 prodi: Ekonomi dan Administrasi, Akuntansi, dan tentunya prodi yang gue pilih yaitu Manajemen. dari sanalah, gue dan kawan-kawan anak FE UNJ yang berbasis di Tangerang memutuskan buat 1 kelompok, dan sampe saat ini dikenal dengan nama "The Gembelers". kenapa namanya demikian? karena saat masa awal kuliah kita semua suka ngegembel alias nongkrong bareng. hehehe. ah kalau diingat-ingat, rasanya pengen balik ke masa itu deh..sekarang sih udah pada sibuk sendiri ya hahaha.
lalu kemudian kelompok prodi. disana gue membuat suatu kelompok yang terdiri dari beberapa anak gembelers yang sama-sama satu prodi. dan dikarenakan didalam 1 kelompok ada 8 orang, kita harus melebur dan mencoba untuk mencari anggota lain. dan disanalah ceritanya bermula.
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dulu sekali, ada seseorang yang satu kelompok prodi yang sama dengan gue, yang awalnya gak kenal malah membuat semuanya berubah. ya, orang itu. saat itu, gue emang gak kenal dia. awalnya gue memasukkan dia dikelompok pun karena tempat tinggalnya yg tak jauh dari kampus. dan saat itu gue harus mengeliminasi seorang temen yg ternyata jadi temen sekelas gue hahaha. dari saat itu, ketika pertama kalinya bertemu tentunya tak ada rasa. sampai waktu tiba bercanda pun tetap sama. gue pun tetap jadi diri sendiri yang sejatinya agak sableng pas masih masa SMA. skip saja langsung ke semester 1. gue gak satu kelas dengan orang itu. tapi anehnya dia mengajak untuk belajar bersama disaat gue pun belom kenal dia. dan baiklah gue turuti kemauannya. dari sanalah mulai terasa sesuatu yg berbeda. entah apa, gue pun tidak tau.
semester 2 masih berlanjut, dia pun meminta hal yang sama yaitu belajar bareng. dan disana mulai berbeda sekali...semester 3 kemudian tidak terjadi sesuatu, karena suatu hal gue dan dia pun jarang bertemu. semester 4 cukup complicated, karena awalnya gue sedikit shock ketika mendengar sesuatu hal, dan tetiba hal tersebut berubah menjadi sesuatu yg gak pernah gue bayangkan sebelumnya. gue semakin dekat dengan orang itu walaupun hanya sekedar untuk belajar bersama. saat itu pula persahabatan gue dengan beberapa teman terpecah karna sesuatu hal, dan tidak bisa kembali bersama. oh ya sebenarnya, jika dibilang belajar juga gak belajar sih, lebih tepatnya tatap muka dan berbincang terkait hal-hal lain diluar materi kuliah. jujur, orang itu sebenarnya lebih pinter dari gue, tapi entah kenapa selalu meminta gue buat ngajarin dia terkait mata kuliah
semester 5. tentunya ada KKL dan banyak cerita didalamnya. gue pun masih tetap diminta untuk mengajari orang ini, dan gue rasa itu yang terakhir kalinya kita belajar bareng sebelum kita lulus.....
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ya, semester 5 itu, mungkin cerita terakhir yang bisa gue kenang bareng orang itu. entah kenapa rasanya mulai semester 6 dan mungkin seterusnya gue seperti orang yang gak kenal sama sekali dengan orang ini. dia.....sudah berubah.
maaf, jika selama ini gue kurang menyadari kehadiran orang ini. maaf jika selama ini gue berbohong ke diri gue sendiri. maaf kalo gue mengatakan sesuatu yg sebenarnya bukan yg ingin gue sampaikan ke lo. maaf kalo selama ini gue berbohong ama perasaan gue sendiri. iya....lo yg dulu suka ngajak belajar bareng. dan sekali lagi, maaf......
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tapi sekarang semuanya sudah berubah. gue pun akhirnya menginjak semester 7 yang notabenenya kuliah gak terlalu padat. dan gue juga sudah gak berkomunikasi dengan orang itu. he has his own way, and so do i. yg lalu biarkanlah berlalu. lambat laun gue pun sudah lupa dengan segala hal tsb. berback to the topic, kemungkinan hanya 2 hari dalam seminggu gue kuliahnya. bahkan bisa 1 hari doang hehehe.
dan inilah waktunya. dengan berat hati waktunya gue untuk berhenti kos. kosan yang gue tempatin sejak semester 2 sampai sekarang. kosan yang didalamnya banyak sekali cerita. kosan yg dulu juga pernah orang ini datangi hanya untuk menjemput gue buat belajar bareng. dan akhirnya harus gue relain untuk pergi dari kamar kos kecil yg nyaman itu. kamar kecil yg juga turut menyaksikan perkembangan seorang Delpy Puspita Sari, yg dulunya masih sableng, lama kelamaan berubah dan mulai untuk dewasa.
akhir kata, terimakasih kosan. pernah menjadi saksi atas suka-duka gue selama menjadi anak kos. terimakasih juga atas orang itu yang pernah membuat gue senang walaupun hanya dengan perlakuan kecil. waktunya ku pamit menjadi anak kosan dan menjadi anak PP UNJ-Tangerang (Pergi-Pulang).
maaf kalo kepanjangan, aslinya mah lebih panjang lagi HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
sekian cerita kali ini~

Take-it or Leave-it?

well, hi there!
this time i wanna type something about what's going on to me.
so, actually i'm in the 7th semester right now. and i really confused about something.
let's see..is that entry just looks like a lesson in accounting management? the take-it or leave-it decision? well, maybe it has the same words but has a different meaning to me..
this time, i have to face the reality. which means by some lessons where i have to take them in this semester. just say that i really confused now.
because of some words that i think will make some mistakes if i translate it into english, maybe i will using bahasa for current words, then.
campus life....
ah..... i never believe that soon i will graduate from this campus. actually, not yet hohoho.
when you're in the 7th semester, maybe you will think that "oh time flies really fast, i think i entered this campus yesterday" and etc. yup, i do think that way too.
fyi, my major states (in management for exactly) that all of those students have to collect 145 sks or satuan kredit semester (i don't know how to translate it into english because it will makes some ambiguities). and now i have 139 sks in hand. so it means that 6 sks left.
err...that's not the main problem. the main problem is, i really confused to take the SUP or not. once again, i don't translate it because of reasons above.
this semester i just have 3 main lessons, and one of them is a PKL session. actually i can take that SUP. but, it has a risk. in my university, you can take that in the 8th semester with skripsi along. SUP is a kind of skripsi which insists of 3 chapters. yup, if you want to graduate, you have to pass the SUP and skripsi, and also those sessions. for the SUP, the first session will be held in October, and i guess i can't make it in that time, it's too in a rush.
the second session will be held around December or Januari. if i take that SUP and i can make it in time, i will follow that second session and if i luck, maybe i will pass that session.
back to the problem, can i make it in time if i choose the SUP in this semester? with just less than 6 months, can i really do it?
the risks are, if i take the SUP and i can't make it all in time, my scores will go down and it will impact to my IPK (something like a scores in university).
i really have to think of it twice. 
and wrestling comes to this mind. can i? or can't i?
yup, and that's how it begins. a mind-wrestling

Goodbye, Our Friends..

good morning.
well, i wanna type in english because i just..want to.
so, why i choose that entry as the title of this blog?
honestly, i feel so...sad.
2 days ago, at saturday, august 18th, 2018, was the sad reality to me, and all of my friends in management, in state university of jakarta for exactly.
my friend, Daan Sya'die Hadaqqo, was passed away at his young ages..
he was really a kind and a cheerful person i've ever met. he made the day with joyful and it feels like the day was colorful with his presence.
he likes to make a new friend, day by day.
surely, he was the most friendly person in this life.
although some people didn't like and sometimes looking down to him, he tried to smile and didn't hate them. he always say hi too to that people. is that awesome? yup, he is..
because of his friendliness, he has a lot of friends.
actually, one of his bestie, was the person i like for a long time (but now are different, i don't care with him anymore).
and after i think of it, their friendship was just really alike with me and my bestfriend. we were doing anything together since the first semester until now, just the two of us. we surely need for each other, i will say that we're compliment for each other, depend on each other like a mutualism symbiosis. happy, sad, anger, joking or anything, were shared.
but the different is, his bestie, who's also my friend too, gone..so far away..
we don't know when our life ends in this life, nobody doesn't know about it..
i know, he will rest in peace..
you have doing anything well done, daan.
in this time, i wanna say thank you for all your kindness, cheerful, friendliness and every positive vibes that you shared to us..
we will remember you, as a precious friend ever..
i hope you know what we actually feel to you..
you have do your best, and we know it so well..
maybe it's time to say a goodbye, our dear friend..
this writing, dedicated to you, and those people who's maybe feel the same, like me..

Gabut?

well, hello for those who read this blog~

i hope everyone are well and stay healthy.

maybe it's time for me to make any write about what happened to me these days (or maybe some months ago) hahaha.

but wait, should i write in english or bahasa?

hmmmm maybe this time i will write in bahasa, or maybe mix it for sure?

let's check this out.

YUP. GUE SEKARANG LAGI MASA PKL CUYYY!

say it loud again. gue sekarang lg magang di salah satu instansi pemerintahan penting bgt kalo menurut gue (i won't say where it is). tapi emang ya, sebagai seorang mahasiswa yang udah nempuh semester tua, emang pasti ngalamin yang namanya magang. jujur, for whom it belongs to (you know what i mean), susah banget buat nyari tempat magang tanpa punya yang namanya "relasi". gue salah satunya nih. karna emang gak ada yang namanya hal itu, jadi gua secara mandiri mulai menyusuri (azeek) perusahaan yang kemungkinan bakal nerima gue. kurang lebih 3 atau 4 bulan gue keliling kota Jakarta buat nyari tempat magang, dan itupun gue telusurin setiap tempat which is bisa dijangkau ama transportasi umum (intinya gak nyusahin deh). karena emang gue gaada kendaraan pribadi buat nelusurin semua tempat (bilang aja anak kosan hahaha).

tapi emang ya, usaha itu gak mengkhianati hasil. gue sempet berada dititik terendah dalam hidup gue a.k.a menyerah, udah bener-bener nyerah bgt buat nyari tempat magang dan itupun tetep gaada hasil. dari buat surat di kampus-anter ke perusahaan-follow up-nothing happened. setelah berusaha dan disertai doa, akhirnya gue pun mendapatkan suatu tempat magang (THANKS TO MY BELOVED FRIENDS FOR THE INFORMATIONS!) dan itu sebelumnya sudah sempet gue konfirmasi ke kaprodi dengan catatan yg penting tau pekerjaan yg dilakukan dan sesuai dengan konsentrasi.

Beklah, ternyata sesuai hehehe

fyi, di prodi gue itu ngasih kebijakan kalau magang harus selama 40 hari kerja (2 bulan lamanya). dan sekarang gue udah magang selama 1 bulan which is bentar lg kelar magang yiihaaa~

oh ya there are a few of my first impressions since i do some job in that place. pertama pastinya ngerasa canggung, dan bener aja. disana beberapa pegawainya agak individualis(?) and i think they're less welcoming to those students who do some "magang". cuman ya balik lg, disini tujuan gue bukan itu, yg utamanya itu sikap gue dalam kerja dan terus inisiatif buat minta kerja (teruntuk laporan pkl ku tercinta soalnya:"))

at the end of this wrote, aku sekarang lg gabut euy wkwkwk

tapi terimakasih gabut, laporan saya udah mau kelar just in a few days bwahahaha.

oh ya penulis ini sekarang lg galau gak ya? enggak doooong!

AKU UDAH LUPA TUH~

it's time for me to be a new one. waktunya membuka diri dong, gausah galau karna kasih tak sampai, there are a lot of good man out there, and someday i will find him in unexpected time:)

kayaknya udah kebanyakan ngebacot atau ngegas deh gue...wkwkwkwkkw

see you soon~

tertanda: mahasiswa yg bentar lg lulus (Aamiin)

Complicated

Well, hi!

Kali ini gw mau pake bahasa indo dulu buat postingan kali ini hehehe. don't feel disappointed, ok?

yup, kenapa gw buat judulnya complicated? memang faktanya kepala gua penuh ama pikiran yg mungkin ada yg berguna, namun ada juga yg tidak. apalagi semenjak yah smt 4 gw udah agak susah buat tidur teratur, sering tidur diatas jam 10 malem. Bahkan pernah gak tidur sama sekali. how come? tasks and anything else, of course.

oiya kalian pernah gak sih suka ama seseorang tapi susah bgt buat ungkapin? Yup. that's totally me.

Kalo diinget lg, dulu gw tiap suka ama seseorang, pasti orang itu selalu tau dan karna ada sedikit sikap "caper" yg gw tunjukin. tapi, kalo lo udah menginjak usia 20 tahun keatas, lo pasti udah mulai berpikir realistis.

Rasa suka itu gak harus lo tunjukin, gak harus lo perhatiin dia terus setiap hari, gak perlu lo kepoin atau cari tau tentang dia. Ini yg gw rasain sekarang. Singkat cerita, i like someone, no, i think i fell in love with someone for almost 3 years. how can i say a thing like that? Karna faktanya, rasa suka terhadap seseorang atau sesuatu hanya bisa bertahan selama +/- 6 bulan, lebih dari itu tandanya you're supposed to fallin' in love (ada buku yg sempet bahas itu, tp gw lupa dapet dari mana huft).
ET TAPI FINALLY GUA UDAH MULAI MELUPAKAN BOCAH ITU COYYY!~ because aku lelah dengan semua itu. kasih tak sampai karna nyangkut di tiang listrik:")) wkwkwkwk!

Tapi faktanya, gw mencoba buat bersikap realistis. Mungkin ga sih itu yg dinamakan cinta? Atau hanya obsesi sementara? Terkadang gw mikirnya itu hanya suatu kekaguman, dan rasa obsesi yg belom tercapai. Pernah suatu ketika gw mencoba buat ungkapin what i feel to him, dengan asumsi setelah gw ungkapin, gw bisa lupain dia. Jujur, setiap orang yg gw "suka" tau perasaan gw ke orang itu, gw langsung bisa lupain orang itu dalam waktu yg singkat, karna perasaan gw udah tersampaikan. but i don't do such a thing like that to this person, for sure. Gw mikirnya "ah apaan si yg gw lakukan sekarang?"

Out of blue, gw udah ga terlalu mentingin sesuatu yg bersifat "relationship". Bukan waktunya buat gw buat berpikir kearah sana. You can say that dulu gw sempet rasain yg namanya "pacaran" or "friendzone". Seiring berjalannya waktu, gw udah bersikap realistis. Banyak planning yg harus terealisasikan. sekarang gw hanya fokus buat belajar, not even more than that. don't you think that's make a sense? hmm..

but surely, ada sedikit harapan yg terbesit di hati gw.

Walau sesaat, maybe, i wanna feel that what we called by "in relationship" again, dimana hal itu bukan hanya obsesi semata, but purely we do need each other. orang itu..mungkinkah untuk bertemu orang itu?

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Wih kebanyakan kata-kata nih, sekian dulu postingan saya. terimakasiih

Night's Reflection

Star..
The star which has a wonderful view
All eyes are going to see you
Like I do
Somehow,
They see you because you are attract another
But actually they don't know the real of who you are
Just like me
You are shining, day by day
But still mysterious, for sure
In this night
You're gone
I'm looking for you, but I couldn't find it yet
Are you gone for a while or never comeback?
Can you change for a reasons? 
Do you go far away to somewhere?
I don't know, really
Sometimes,
The Star is confusing me
And then hope are coming to this thoughts
Knowing that hope is a dream that doesn't sleep
Hoping that you will back and shining again around me
Night, I wanna make a favor
Sending this hope to the star
Until know that i really miss it

Grateful Enough!

Hello~
Well, lemme say something good (for me)
this time i'm free or you can say that i'm trying to spend this holiday with laying on the bed hhhhhh (but it isn't true-_-). during this holiday, i wanna type something which is really become a relieve for me.
you know what?
this semester, i got a really high scores woohooooo!! (giving a clapping hands)
seriously, this time i really in a high peak of scores, which is i couldn't say anything in faces this semester. when i compared it with the second semester, it's really has above those scores. whoaa....
i'm very grateful and thanks to God i can going through all of those barriers which is i think it's difficult (or maybe i have a negative thoughts before-_-)
but really, i think my efforts before had paid off with a really good results. for people out there, don't worry with your scores or anything else. keep become a struggler, just like me. don't make the difficult become your enemies. come closer to it, paying attention to it. just learn and learn and someday you can control that difficulties. keep going up fellas!
oh i forgot, now i'm looking for some part-time job. you know, i can't sitting right here and not doing anything. i think it's good for me to know how it feels when you are trying to earn money and i realized something: this era it's a little bit...oh no, it's difficult to search a proper job which was qualified with it. silly me, how could i say a thing just right now? really..looking for a job is not as easy as buying a candy. and i realized something too. people who has a high intelligence will lose with people who has a good luck. i wanna highlight this words. luck. really, i need luck in my life. how i find it? with closer yourself to God and keep pray of course. so....wish we luck!
bye~

Welcome,2018!

Hahahaha i'm sorry i forgot to say this but it is okay, isn't it?
Welcome 2018! hope all of my targets in this life can be achieve and have a better life for now on.
burn it up!!!! (keep become a struggler!)
Selamat tinggal 2017, selamat datang 2018.
Selamat tinggal kenangan, selamat datang harapan:)

Goodbye, Semester 5!

Well, good evening everyone!
ah....i really sorry because i never type something on this blog for a long time. and now i think i want to use indonesian language or mix with english for this time, i guess.
Semester 5.....
bener-bener banyak cerita didalamnya. senang, sedih, kesel, marah, udah pasti dialamin. tapi ada beberapa cerita menarik sih buat semester 5 ini. hahaha
Pemilihan konsentrasi. yup, salah satu yang bikin gw galau selama seminggu. dan akhirnya pilihan gw pun jatuh ke konsentrasi sdm, which is itupun dengan penuh pertimbangan.
KKL. yeah you can say that gw pun baru mulai KKL di smt 5. kalo temen-temen bilang sih KKL itu singkatan dari Kuliah Kayak Liburan. sebenarnya sih engga gitu juga ya, dibilang liburan pun kita tetep harus ngerjain laporan setelah acara KKL..but seriously, awalnya gw agak mager buat ikut kegiatan itu. but sure, lumayan asik sih kalo menurut gw, karna dari 5 hari itu buat gw refresh untuk sejenak.
dan mungkin cerita yg paling lucu itu panggilan untuk beberapa dosen. yup, dosen eksim which is called by "OM", or dosen metlit which is called himself with "Papa" and he always saying "darling" in his class so i called him "Papa Darling" wahahahahaha (sebutan itu tercetus sendiri di benakku).
and then......smt 5 ini menurut gw gak berasa banget. mungkin karna gw udah gak terlalu mikirin setiap tugas sih. keep a mindset "just let it flow and stay to not panic" but seriously tetep aja ada panik-panik ajaib gimanaaa gitu....wkwkwk
but really, i can do it, i guess.
and then, singkat cerita. smt 5 ini belum berakhir. yup, gw mesti buat tugas individu e-commerce dan deadlinenya sebentar lg......
sekian cerita kali ini. thanks!

Insomnia, huh.....

Hei what's up everyone? I hope you all are well right now.
Well, did you ever feel or have 'insomnia'?
Yep, that's what I feel right now. In this holiday I got this insomnia. Really, I don't like this situation. Because you know sometimes I feel so sleepy during in college and got insomnia in holiday. This is no joking, It's really annoying-_-
Well, maybe I want to change the topics, then. 
I think teenagers or university student, just like me, we ever sleep lately because a lot of tasks or exams. Sometimes we have to eat something or listening to music or drink a cup of coffee in order to make our eyes keep widely. But seriously, don't push your brain harder if you had in your limits.
Yup, silly me in shs. I ever be like that. I usually listen to musics and drink coffee during the night. Because of that habits, sometimes my parents will reprimand at me hmmm
Just said, now I won't push my brain harder if I had in my limitation. Long time ago, I ever experience headache, no, I mean the worst headache ever because of that bad habits. The pain happens behind the head. Maybe that occurs because of sleep lately, drink coffee in the night, and push your brain to keep thinking although you're tired. But now as university student, I change that habit slowly. I don't want to feel that headache again. It's really terrible!
Well, I think it's enough and see ya

Holiday, maybe?

This is my first posting in this 2017 so i want to say "hi!"
Well, now i'm in my holiday now, with a lot of free time that i didn't know what i want to do, then
With this long-holiday maybe i should write more and more in this blog, but sometimes i forgot that i have a blog where i can devote anything-_-
So here i go~
This time there is something that i can't explain although myself , or sometimes i didn't want to recognize it. Just put it straight, because of choice of concentration in college, your ex-bestfriend, or liking for someone for almost 2 years who ask you to study together.  Maybe i have to highlight the last sentences or just forget it all. Change the topic, silly me!
Yeah, when you are in 20 y.o, maybe you'll have some thoughts like: "who am i actually?", "what i really can do?" or still have this thoughts like "what is my really potential and talent?".
Well, some of us maybe have this thoughts, and so do i. Sometimes, you have a lot of purpose in your life and you want everything goes well, but did you know? sometimes what you plan in life doesn't go as well as you want. I'm still remember of a novel that i read. If you ever read a novel with the title "Just Another Birthday", maybe you'll know this sentences. I think that was a great novel which created by Indonesian people (sorry i forgot her name T_T)
It says: stop making plans, cause i know life has a funny ways of ruining it all.
Seriously, i think that's right, because i ever be in a situation which all of my plans didn't go well. But this time i just want to do the best for my life, and see the final results of it and don't forget to pray of course.
Well, i think it's enough for now. Besides, i want to continue my "movie-marathon" or you can say that i want to watch korean drama. see you~

Hi!

Good morning~
Now i want to post something about my activities right now....
Whoaa, i'm in the middle of a-long-holiday~
Actually i'm bored right now, because i don't know what i'm going to do with these long holiday
I've already do anything like eat, sleep, watch, playing games, or used the social media
But... gosh it's so bored!
Honestly i want to try the part time job but my mom said that just help her to do some housechores zzzzzzzz-,-
Well, i'll be go to the collegues soon on  1st september
I think it's enough for now, i want to continued to type but my older sister was so annoying...geez-__-

What's Up!

Good evening guys!
I will use the english to improved my english skills, especially in writing and the vocabularies.
Well, i've already free and now i have much times to posting some of my thoughts. so check it out~
Well, as i said before, now i'm free because this is the holiday time for the university student like me yeaayy!
no more duties, tasks, or homework and something like that until the next 3 months. it's like whoaa it's so chill out for me!
But, there's one problem that influence my mind. well said, "galau" has come to my mind....
omo..........
the stupid thing is, i don't know what thing that makes me feel "galau" like that. yeah, honestly, i ever been like this since long long time ago. and it makes me so hampered.
i've tried to make myself busy with yeah you know with do anything that can entertain myself. but i think that's useless hhhhhh (laugh-emoticon)
It's makes sense because you know the teenagers these days sometimes experience that feel. so maybe i will say "just let it flow" will be the best answer of my messy mind.
hmmm..... i think it's enough for now. sorry for this weirdo like me. 
see ya~

What's up!

Hey everyone! what's up bro! well, this time maybe i have a chances to posting some of my daily activities hhhh.  so, now i'm free yeaayy! i'm in the middle of holiday because i've rise in the next grade or in second semester of my college. well, i think my scores are not bad, i'm very grateful with the results. maybe, no, i must to improve my scores step by step so soon i'll pass the college with the good scores aamiin.
hmm sorry if my english are bad because i'm trying to improve my vocabularies and also in speaking or writing. well, i'm so disappointed with my holiday...  you know what? because of my short-holiday just in some days-_- maybe i shouldn't complain with it zzzzzz-,-
i'm confused, but i don't know why. maybe i have a complicated thought or it's just my feeling, huh. maybe i should more hang out with my "the gembelers", that's a group which is created by me and my friends that insists of 14 people and i think we are the weirdo guys hahahaha. but i like just the way they're.
i guess it's enough, so..bye!